Found this astrologer’s take on this month’s full moon, and it kind of fits in with what Perimenopausal Ponderings was saying about various crutches we have , and what Catherine Dean then said about struggling to enforce even the simplest boundaries for yourself when you are a part of a busy family.
This part really resonated with me:
“It took me years to know that if I was true to my taste buds, if I followed my energy, if I made no excuses when I didn’t want to go to the dinner party or hang out with people (because I am an introvert), that I had no obligations to people for its own sake, that that would free up my spirit and walk me straight into my soul, cultivating the freedom and expression of my true self.” – Debra Silverman
I have been trying the past few years to just tell the truth and not make excuses about all the things she lists there. I have learned and am learning to honor the boundaries of my mental /emotional health, the boundaries that PTSD, Depression, and Anxiety have made necessary. I have learned to not torture myself just because it’s easy enough for others to do this or that. And so I try to just be honest about not wanting to go out, or do something, or needing time to myself now, whereas in the past I would make excuses. I would make excuses because I didn’t think others would understand why some things that are so easy for them, are so difficult for me, or that my mental health requires conscious nurturing from me in order for me to remain healthy. And she is right when she says that it’s freeing and self empowering.
This is a nice take on this month’s Full Moon. I hope you all enjoy it as I did, and feel more supported in being true to yourself, crutches and all. : )
reprinted from http://www.debrasilvermanastrology.com :
Leo / Aquarius Full Moon: Show Up As You
By Debra Silverman
“As you age, you will find that you care less and less about what others will say. You learn that what YOU think about ME–is none of my business. This truth is liberating.
When you finally get to be you, life begins. Staying true without making excuses to please the ‘other’, is actually energizing and fun. For those of you how have lost your fire, here is how to rekindle it.
Welcome to this full moon where you are allowed to show up as YOU (which too often is called ‘selfish’). Selfishness can often be thrown as an accusation at Leo. At it’s worst, Leo is self-centered; at best, Leo is free to show up, show off and have a big fat life.
This full moon combo of Leo and Aquarius is anything but boring. How are you doing with your freedom to be–dare I say it–selfish?
It took me years to know that if I was true to my taste buds, if I followed my energy, if I made no excuses when I didn’t want to go to the dinner party or hang out with people (because I am an introvert), that I had no obligations to people for its own sake, that that would free up my spirit and walk me straight into my soul, cultivating the freedom and expression of my true self.
This combo is telling YOU to try to practice self-FULL-ness–distinct from selfishness. It’s easy for me to say, said the seasoned Astrologer, but I want you to know how to find your unique self and live it fully!!
Tell me: when is the last time you allowed yourself to be naked and unashamed? This is an opening that can happen with this full moon.
Mercury retrograde is here, too. See if you can revert back to some old innocence you left behind–when you didn’t judge your body, gravity and reality. When the clay was wet and you still had hope. Pick back up the part of you that is young and willing to be you no matter what. I have never let my kid go too far away.
Where is your kid? Bring it back out and feel the authentic self snuggling up to those you love.”
For more by Debra Silverman, check out her website at http://www.debrasilvermanastrology.com.